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Thursday, April 23, 2009 Y 11:50 PM

Well, what can I say about today?
It was rather gloomy. As in the minute I woke up, there wasn't a beautiful view of the orange light.
Instead, it was rather black and depressing.
So the minute I woke up, I knew that nothing good would come out of it.

Well so what happened today?
Nothing much, I have to say. I don't know why I have a blog. I never know what to say about my day.
Instead I find I can randomly rant about nothing.
Anyways...
Do you ever get those days where you're just sick of it all?
Sick of being happy, being a 'light' to be around?
I mean, I'm so happy all the time, I deserve a time to be depressed damn it!
I'm sure even the most happiest of person goes through it.
So i decided to have a small depressed moment.
I don't know why. But lately, I haven't been able to feel moments of funness around the Group.
And I feel kinda bad because I take out my depressed moments on them.
And then when I get to another class, and I see my other friends, in this case J and M,
I don't know why but I perk up immediately.
And then I feel guilty because I'm happier around them than with the Group.
But it seems that I'm happier around anyone outside of the Group.

Now let me go more into detail.
The Group is a bunch of girls that I've been hanging out with since I was a sad, fat loser.
I didn't try to make friends with anyone else then.
I don't know what happened. Maybe I matured WAY faster than the Group, but I now have other friends and I try to hang out with them as well.
But the Group get all annoyed at me.
I mean they don't tell me, but they sure act that way.
Urghhh

I mean, I'm wayyyy happier around my other friends.
I don't know why.
Maybe I've been hanging round the Group for way too long and am sick of them?
But then, I thought that we had a real friendship. So what is real friendship if its not that??

Sighzz...
Why does everything have to be so complicated??!!!
Other than that, school was fun.
Everyone liked the banana and choc chip cupcake I baked.
Maybe that's why I bake, to make others happy. :D

the 'GROUP'