let the RAINBOW pave your way~.

Saturday, April 25, 2009 Y 3:35 AM

I can't believe it.

It's almost like the news of it hasn't sunken in just yet.

I should feel angry, shocked, horror-struck...

anything but this numb shell.

I mean, I do feel some anger, but I always imagined that if something like THIS happened, it would be WAYY more intense.

I don't know.

Maybe it's God's love in me?

I just can't seem to hate someone, no matter how justified that hate would appear to be.

I don't know.

Is it wrong for me to be feeling like this?

Also the thing was that K seemed so devastated, so ashamed, so humiliated.

My heart ached for her, because she is my best friend.

I can't imagine how she feels.

If something like that happened, I would probably so ashamed that I would consider something drastic.

But I've prayed with her and I made her promise never to go emo on me.

I mean the only cowardly thing that can come out of it is if she takes the easy way out.

But everytime I think of HIM...how smug he must have felt...how happy and unashamed he feels...

I just feel like punching him and severly hurting him.

He had done the UTMOST horrible thing.

He took away her pride.

HOW COULD HE??

I mean, he should be feeling guilt, shame, some sort of pain.

But I can just imagine him boasting about it to his friends.

I could report him...but what good would that do??

What to do??? That's the question,