my life is driving me insane

i feel like im drowning in the amount of stress and pressure that i put on myself

i relax, then i mentally kick myself for wasting time and the next thing i know, ive spent 2 hrs just watching videos instead of studying.

and then i can't sleep that night cuz im thinking 'idiot jo...idiot.' once, i literally got up from bed at 12am just to do a chapter of methods to make myself feel better

my life is rather pathetic.